Looking at myself on the mirror while studying for my chemistry just now over n over, I cant help thinking that how many stupid choices that i had made during my teenage years, choosing the wrong directions, never listen to my dad n mom's advice n so so many more, i cant believe that i can stand until now, looking at my face, from non-panda-eyes to those black circles under my eyes during the study-up-late-for-maths in the year 2009, from those pimples that i had from form one till now still got a little bit due to eating too many chocolates n cappucinos n such, joining the brass band n not making sure that i got the right sunblock lotion n making my complexion being more n more black n dull, from my over-stressed primary school years causing my eyes to have short sightness n wearing dorky glasses until now wearing contacts, from my all-so-tangly hair to straight hairs, i finally realised that all these times i had changed...a lot, just to show the inner me out.
looking back at the memors me n my friends share during our secondary years, form one, joining the brass band n always have to listen to my dad's nagging of nt maintaining my schoolwork causing my schoolwork to become worse n finally quit my beloved bb, choosing the wrong path a.k.a choosing the path to be with Felix at the first place, trying to make friends with him by textig him at the first place. me being so bossy n gossiping all year round without actually sit down properly n study for 24 hors in form one...me being childish n such, these bad behaviours had affected me ever since.
Looking back on the year of 2008, the year that I had fallen in love with Felix again, finding the urge to get rid of my bad behaviours that i had in form one, quitting band n started my form one basics again ever since the death of my beloved grandfather. I will always look at my grandfather's photo over n over again n cried for the first three months when they started talking bout my grandfather. I always tried my best to hide my emotions in front of my friends n teachers in school n succesfully, i made it by not letting my tears out when they talked bout my grandfather. my results improved in form two n reached to 70 to 75 of average n targetting myself to 80 is a hard one as my chinese kept pulling me down n making myself very sad when looking back at my results, everything very good n perfect exept chinese, n sejarah of course. haix..as i was english educated ever since i was born n i only touched chinese when i Started my primary one. as i had my Pre-kindergarden in my dad's company which is all blondies n people like obama>< I only had the chance to speak chinese when i started kindergarden but havent had the chance to write chinese until I was seven.so that's why my english was middle-ok ok while my chinese is quite nyawa-nyawa ikan.
I started my piano lessons when i was four n started performing when i was six.that time was for our school concert n we had some kinda like orchestra n i went participating in it.that time was the best. i got the chance to wear a gown!!!I still had the dress though..until noe when i wanted to try it it does looked like a tee shirt to me right now=)
when i was in brunei, i started participating in wushu specialising in taichi n swordship, participating in atrs n crafts and alsoin basketball. but good things never came always. i was checked n toild that my nose had some kind of thing growing inside my nose n after i had the operation in cutting it my nose n my breathing system werent that good ever since. bt i insisted on participating these activities until primary four when i decided to quit all activities n recovered slowly.
Form three, i decided to have revenge on him. asking him out but actually ditching him for many times, studying with all my might to score as many a's as i can to make myself useful in the future, n many more. n finally i got 6a's with my chinese n sejarah b n for uec 1a4b1c...n my english got an a for it n was very thrilled when i heard the news.
right now n form four, i tried my best in scoring good marks for my results n make my mom proud, participating in dancing n arts n crafts, many more, i cant believe that time flies past so fast n yet nobody realised it. haix. times past n people changed. only the photo remained our faces n memories while the person in the photo changed a lot=)
Thank god i changed to the good side=)
next stop:Boyfriend=)
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