Follow my OWN heart =)

Well i hope this is the conclusion for the beggining of my story=)

Yea I DO LOVE HIM

But then i just cant find some safetiness from him...

like most girls wanted d "an quan gan"

i cant type chinese sorry@@

anyways..

really..

I cant find it from him...

he's good and perfect inside his heart..

but from the outside..

he's not what i had expected..

i din mean that i really care bout one's looks..

but then when i saw him It makes me hestitate more...

.......

........

its my personal thinking that I have to Overcome before i really have to start a relationship with him..

he's really, really nice...

nobody has ever been that nice to me..

well except my gang d frens of course...

he's great, he cares bout me

he remembers everything that i had said

and he's ambitious=)

lol but then he's SKINNIER than me physically

even thou he's five kilo heavier than me...

i really mind that part..

cause it looked like i am a big mamma sissy dating with her lil bro@@

i just cant imagine myself going out with him...

he's 13 days younger than me,..

but i dont mind that..

MY PARENTS do@@ haix..

well thge most important thing is that he's SKINNIER than me and then 

i cant feel SAFE  going out with him..

 i mean i do mind that i need those safetiness..

imagine when your boyfriend hugs u and u cant feel safe at all...

like its u guarding him not HIM...

i think that's my personal problem..

 i do mind other people's critisism towards me and my future boyfriend...

he's special to me but i need to change myself before i can really settle down and start a relationship with him..

he's the one that i want...

but I dont wanna hurt him if i start the relationship now..

sometimes i just wish that he has broad shoulders that i always dreamed my man would be and just embraced him forever..

but in the reality world.God just have to testify u to realise that a dream is a dream..

amd thank god for letting me get the chance to know him..

cause he's so far the best man that i have ever met..

he may look SKINNY and NERDY on the outside..

but on the inside he's too man to be a man...

so i'll just cross my fingers and PRAY hard that i could just overcome my own problems..

FOLLOW MY HEART

and have a happy ending with him in years to come

if u see this old man...

i hope u understand why i delayed it at the first place..

 i need to change myself and settle down and be more MATURE to be yours...

I LOVE YOU

and it never change=)

and i am stupid enough to eat your bait =)

XOXO