Follow my OWN heart =)

Well i hope this is the conclusion for the beggining of my story=)

Yea I DO LOVE HIM

But then i just cant find some safetiness from him...

like most girls wanted d "an quan gan"

i cant type chinese sorry@@

anyways..

really..

I cant find it from him...

he's good and perfect inside his heart..

but from the outside..

he's not what i had expected..

i din mean that i really care bout one's looks..

but then when i saw him It makes me hestitate more...

.......

........

its my personal thinking that I have to Overcome before i really have to start a relationship with him..

he's really, really nice...

nobody has ever been that nice to me..

well except my gang d frens of course...

he's great, he cares bout me

he remembers everything that i had said

and he's ambitious=)

lol but then he's SKINNIER than me physically

even thou he's five kilo heavier than me...

i really mind that part..

cause it looked like i am a big mamma sissy dating with her lil bro@@

i just cant imagine myself going out with him...

he's 13 days younger than me,..

but i dont mind that..

MY PARENTS do@@ haix..

well thge most important thing is that he's SKINNIER than me and then 

i cant feel SAFE  going out with him..

 i mean i do mind that i need those safetiness..

imagine when your boyfriend hugs u and u cant feel safe at all...

like its u guarding him not HIM...

i think that's my personal problem..

 i do mind other people's critisism towards me and my future boyfriend...

he's special to me but i need to change myself before i can really settle down and start a relationship with him..

he's the one that i want...

but I dont wanna hurt him if i start the relationship now..

sometimes i just wish that he has broad shoulders that i always dreamed my man would be and just embraced him forever..

but in the reality world.God just have to testify u to realise that a dream is a dream..

amd thank god for letting me get the chance to know him..

cause he's so far the best man that i have ever met..

he may look SKINNY and NERDY on the outside..

but on the inside he's too man to be a man...

so i'll just cross my fingers and PRAY hard that i could just overcome my own problems..

FOLLOW MY HEART

and have a happy ending with him in years to come

if u see this old man...

i hope u understand why i delayed it at the first place..

 i need to change myself and settle down and be more MATURE to be yours...

I LOVE YOU

and it never change=)

and i am stupid enough to eat your bait =)

XOXO

Well its been two years from now starting from the first day of me being a senior in Riam road secondary school...those two years are the two best years of my life..honestly...by getting the chance to strengthen our all sister's d friendship even though we are not at the same class and even the same school( i miss u wei sze)...lol our friendship still stands strong as it was before haha! have u ever thin of the days when one day u lost every single penny and every single reason for u to live and suddenly there's a big ray of light ahead of u and a lot of warm hands grabbing u up and supporting u all the way?? yea i guess this is the bast way to describe my gang, my big family, my sisters, my life <3 haha!
 well i might be sounding emotional now cause each and every one of us are going to be seperated since the seventh of december when the last paper of our SPM- chinese ends as a big full stop of our secondary life=) it's a sad moment to have to separate from my gang...a very sad moment...i will miss those days when we will sit together at lunch at the canteen..meeting up everyday and making fun of each other...organising group activities together and such...oh how i miss those moments!! when will we have these moments back then?? all of us are separated in the real world and we have our own future to care for...it's a blessing on how fast we are to greaduation and soon enough we will be graduating from universities again! well not to mention having our own true love and start a family *blush* lol its true cause time flies and who know's...tomorrow one of us will be a mother dy muahaha!
these five years...bring me so many good and bad memories...we do good thing, bad things, got our punishments and many more haha! there are so many things that we need about months to recall back all these things..honestly!! lol haha...
well our spm english essay topic tells me a right thing thou...the best things in life are always free=)
that was two hundred percent super true and no one can deny it=)
and the most important thing in life are of course-happiness
and you all are the ones that brings happiness to my life-friendship<3
a thing that cannot be described further but it lies a very deep meaning inside it...which i am lazy to say xp u know, i know, the whole gang knows..then jiu ok liao haha! xp
aly is going overseas next year...everyone are not studying in the same school..i will miss u all very very much d lay=( *sobs haha!
 but anyway..its been two years since i had touched this blog and i had finally worked out the password so..being emotional for a moment doesnt matter, rite?? =)
cheers my friends, for our future, for our friendship=)

Friendship Forever Guys...=)